I Hate It When People Constantly Repeat Themselves....

But I'm gonna reiterate sumpin for ya.

BTW...I'm purposefully butchering the English language here, I mean I do it all the time but if you read on you'll note that I don't really care. Just don't read it like I'm a Valley Girl saying 'like, whatever' all the time and popping my gum.

I'm sure you can find a reference to it from a post dated several years ago (i.e. my last post haha), but somehow somewhere several years ago I started getting really weird feeling sometime in the fall. It was always like in August I just hated stuff. I think it kinda came from when I was in college maybe and just got kinda weirded out, or a combination of some other things. But mostly...it's a form of stress, or maybe how I deal with it?

It actually skipped me in the fall! I guess I didn't have a whole lot on my plate. Well, actually I DID, but it was just something that I was working on that I didn't know what I was doing and somehow it didn't get to me.....or I made it work right before I got all angry at the world. Bad news....I'm, like, whatever, totally blah.

It's because of work, too. Trying to get some things worked out to make it easier, and get the place cleaned and looking nice. And some extracurricular stuff that I really want to do but am not good at.

I happen to like what I do....I mean yeah, sometimes a person will make a comment about how I could be somewhere else doing something cooler; and there is a point to that, I'll grant it. But I guess I just don't want to. I mean it's totally awesome to go somewhere you've never been or just visit somewhere you really like, but doesn't EVERYONE get tired of where they are at some point? Basically it scares me b/c I'm extremely incompetent. THERE'S ALWAYS SOMEONE BETTER THAN YOU. In my case, that's everyone. So, what I'm doing right now works for me. In a few ways. Financially, no.....BUT........I'M STILL ALIVE. I HAVE FOOD...I HAVE (at the moment freezing) SHELTER....THERE ARE AT LEAST A FEW COOL PEOPLE THAT I KNOW.....and I can always work at getting better in my occupation.

I guess you can sum it up by saying that I don't come down to where you work and slap the dick out of your grandma's mouth.

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On a brighter note, I watched "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind" again Sunday.

Never heard the line 'Constantly talking isn't necessarily communicating' before and I really liked that.

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